You think the Universe is like a big auntie, God is a wise uncle, and Creation is… well, some kind of loving force. Whoever they are, they all know each other, they hear us (except the ones who don’t believe in them), accept applications during business hours—which is always—and only respond when asked. Otherwise, they seem pretty chill. Unbothered, even. But if we believe they love us, somehow life starts reflecting that back.
Hehe… but what if, since childhood, we just never learned to trust anyone? Not people, let alone supernatural beings. What if we felt betrayed by both? What if we’ve just been side-eyeing the whole thing all along?
We still hope that, if we try hard enough, we’ll get what we need. But mostly, we think they’re just irresponsible characters who don’t understand plain language or clear signs. You have to speak in code. One wrong move and—boom—request lost in the black hole.
Oh, maybe we believe that these three (or one of them) important beings are indeed total love, total acceptance, all-creating, and they can and do everything, but just not for us. Because – yes, for various becauses. Whatever. We peed our pants in childhood. Or, even worse, pooped… We were into kleptomania or had strange quirks that made grownups whisper. And overall we’re not impressive, not cool, only getting Bs in school while others were winning trophies or collecting shiny badges. What a bummer. (By the way, I once fell off the gym horse in sixth grade and basically stayed under it till the last bell of eighth grade.)
So yeah, it’s all crap.
Every time I sink into doubt or sadness—questioning what’s happening, what it’s all for—I forget: it’s just another preparation. A stripping away. Like layers of an onion, peeling off what’s not true. And after each layer is shed, I see a little clearer. I’m not saying I’m enlightened. Not even close. But something has opened. A view I’ve never had before.
To be honest, I got a little nervous about it. The insight feels so subtle that if I start blurting it out, people might think I’ve lost it. But strangely, I’ve never felt saner. The way I perceive life now—even if it’s temporary (onion layers may return)—has dissolved so many problems I used to agonize over. Big ones, small ones. They just… fall outside the frame.
In this space, so many of the things that used to block us—especially around self-worth, acceptance, communication—just stop mattering. It’s like a zero-state. Fragile at first. Easy to fall out of. But also easy to return to. And after spending a little time there, it’s wild to think—how did I ever live any other way?
I’m not giving you the details yet. There’s one key phrase at the end that says it all. And if you’re near this state, you’ll get it. It’s something that has to be approached. If you just blurt it out in a random convo—especially with people who don’t “talk” to the Universe (or God or Creation)—you’ll sound at best incomprehensible, at worst… totally off the rails.
But it’s SO amazing. There are so many beautiful, strange, and profound connections in it. (Yes, this is me teasing. To really explain it—I’d have to write a book. Actually… not a bad idea.)
So. Ready?
I am the Universe that enjoys being human.
