You must keep yourself in check, over and over again. You must fight and not give up. I know this is hard.
You have to hold on. You cannot relax or accept pain as something permanent. You must remove it, erase it from your inner landscape. You must find new reserves of strength inside yourself. You must find a fresh source of optimism and positivity. You must keep moving forward, without overthinking. Keep telling yourself, even through clenched teeth, “Everything will be fine, everything will be fine,” or “I’m doing fine, and it will get even better.”
Don’t cry. Don’t let yourself cry. Don’t allow yourself to believe you’ve failed at something or paint dark, grim pictures of the future. Don’t let yourself doubt that things will turn out the way you want — the way you dream. Don’t give space for self-pity. Don’t allow it. Move forward, go through the storm. Go, no matter what.
Find new strength inside yourself. Find it. You must.
Because every time you let your guard down, you get closer to a place you don’t want to be — closer to despair. And one day, you may find yourself standing beyond the threshold of those darkest doors. But by then, it will be too late. All the happiness you could have waited for, could have chosen to create, will flash before your eyes in a single, heartbreaking moment — just a fleeting gust of what might have been. A spark of joy you could have felt if only you had stayed strong.
We all have moments of weakness. Moments when we want to collapse to the floor, kick and scream, cry out, “Why? I want to love so much! I love life so much! I want to be happy and bring happiness!” But in those moments, you must remind yourself — you must be strong. Only the strong win.
I want to learn how to truly love myself. To forget everything that holds me back — all the patterns, all the clichés of a “standard happy life.” I want to live my own life, an unconventional happy life, break free from the frames that limit me, fly, and love fully.
